As we move into a new year, have you made any resolutions?
I have always felt a certain 'pressure' as we into a new year, to make a resolution of some sort. I have done all the usual, drink more water, lose weight, exercise more, take my make up off every night.... but as I get older I know I can really start doing any of these, at any time, if I really want to. I don't think I have ever lasted a whole month doing any of these, if I am totally honest with myself. They say to make anything a habit you have to do it at least ten times in a row, so it isn't that hard, is it?
For 2022 I am not making any plans, just going with the flow. I learned a big lesson last year when my beautiful sister died, to really live life to the fullest as best you can. I used to say this a lot but did I actually do it? No is the honest answer.
Lesley died in September and it was the hardest thing I have ever dealt with (and continue to). We had the most amazing relationship and having had the normal sibling relationship of loving each other one minute and hating the next, we grew so close after our teenage years. I can honestly say we never had a disagreement in over thirty years. I feel blessed to not have had any regrets in our relationship.
Since Lesley's passing I decided I had to live the rest of my life having no regrets as I know that this has helped me so much since she left this life. Inside I have always told myself "I will do this when I am ...................." and I can fill in the blank with many, many words and ages, but was I ever really going to take the plunge? Probably not, as something always gets in the way, right?
I woke up one Monday morning in November and it came to me, loud and clear....do it now, not next week, next month, next year or within a couple of years. DO IT NOW. The energy I woke up with that Monday hasn't wained and I am doing what I had always planned to do, without looking back, not once.
I am starting my year having already made my "resolution" and it feels good. So if you want to change something in your life, do it. Don't wait for a significant day to do it, do it now.
I wish you well for all you decide to do, you won't regret it.
Love Gillian xoxo